Saturday, May 29, 2004

Love Actually

I watched this DVD last night/this morning. And not to go all Gene Shalit on yer collective asses, but...I loved it, actually. :) Seriously, it's like a British take on a Robert Altman film. There are, like, a thousand characters, yet there is no difficulty keeping track of who's who, as they are all quite distinct. And these characters were played by seemingly every contemporary British actor working today, not to mention four American actors (Billy Bob Thorton, Shannon Elizabeth, Laura Linney, and Denise Richards). Just terrific. And it was exactly what I needed right now to renew my faith in love....as hokey as that sounds.

And while I'm on the subject of good British TV/film, season three of Coupling comes out June 1st, and, perhaps needless to say, I've already pre-ordered it. I don't have BBC America, so I have to wait, eagerly, for the DVD releases of shows like Coupling and The Office. I can't wait for more Jeff-isms.

I'm George Bush...

...and I approved this message:

The Day After Tomorrow

Anne and I went to see this movie today. Here is Anne's quite thoughtful reaction to the movie. Here's my decidedly less-thoughtful reaction:

I definitely recommend it. The first half, when the proverbial shit hits the proverbial fan, is really something. But I felt a little funny afterwards, getting into my car and driving the few blocks home. Like, if only I rode my bike more often, I could stop an apocalyptic climate change, like the one depicted in the movie. I really have been driving too much, so maybe seeing this movie has me feeling just a bit guilty. Like I caused all that to happen, all that CGI destruction. Like, sorry most of North America. Even thought it's a movie, I bet I ride my bike to campus next Tuesday.

In other news, this was pretty weird.

Am I blushing yet?

People have been noticing my weight loss lately. The other day, my friend's 12-year-old daughter noted that my "tummy doesn't stick out anymore." And this morning, my neighbor noted that he could see the weight loss, especially in my face. And then, last night at the Bird, someone, when told I was 35, said that I look late 20's. :) So I am feeling pretty good. I had a great run this morning. The best of Sloan makes such a terrific soundtrack. I guess I am also feeling good after finally coming out the tail end of all this stuff I've had going on in my personal life.

And I know I haven't posted much about it the last few days, but that was because things were escalating to a pretty insane degree towards the end of this week. It got to the point where I had my eightsomething neighbor guarding my house yesterday while I was in class, and where one of my oldest, dearest friends felt compelled to send the following missive:

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From: [deleted]@aol.com
Sent: Thursday, May 27, 2004 11:33 PM
To: [deleted]@hotmail.com
Subject: Watch yourself

Hey there little girl -- you touch a hair on Andy's head or a thing in his place, and I will hunt you down and make your little bitchy ass pay. Back the fuck off and leave it alone.

Don't think I won't fuck you up, bitch. -- Wendy

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It's like my life was suddenly an episode of the OC. Oh sure, I can joke about it now, but at the time it was terrible (Morrissey quote there). Things have settled down in the last 36 hours and I no longer dread the "boop" of my email notification.

And in four more class periods, I will be 100% free to enjoy the rest of the summer...if it ever begins. Seriously, we've broken the record for rainfall in Mount Pleasant this month, and here it is almost June and temps are still only barely reaching the 60's. I guess it's not SO bad. But it certainly doesn't feel like summer. BTW, I am looking out onto my deck, and it looks like rain. Again.

Sigh.

AP

Composed while listening to: Dinosaur Jr. - Ear-Bleeding Country: The Best of Dinosaur Jr.

Friday, May 28, 2004

Donate to Kerry Campaign

I just made my monthly donation to the Kerry campaign. You can too. Go here.

Here's the content of an email that I received from the Kerry campaign:

It's the end of the month again -- another FEC deadline that the Bush campaign and the media will be watching. Your past contributions have made an enormous difference. We've beaten Bush-Cheney two months in a row -- help us do it again, by contributing today. This month ends with a three-day holiday weekend -- so today is the day for you to make another contribution and help us reach this month's goal.

Please make a contribution by visiting:

https://contribute.johnkerry.com

On July 29th, John Kerry will accept the Democratic nomination, a full five weeks before George Bush accepts the Republican nomination. The Republicans will have a $50 million August advantage because they will have five extra weeks to raise and spend money as part of their primary campaign.

John Kerry has decided to accept the nomination in Boston as planned, rejecting suggestions that he delay and raise primary funds for an additional five weeks. He wants nomination night to be a defining moment -- one that propels us toward victory on November 2nd. And he believes our history-making grassroots campaign will overcome George Bush's five-week advantage.

The Bush-Cheney primary campaign may have a financial advantage right now. But they don't have the power of our ideas, the strength of our convictions, or the energy of our movement. And they don't have John Kerry.

Together, we can dramatically reduce George Bush's five-week advantage by outraising his campaign five months in a row. Our challenge right now is to make May another striking display of our energy, determination, and resolve. And there's only three days left. We're moving forward to Boston in July, and to the White House next January. As long as we stick together, nothing can stop us.

If you can't donate today, then forward this email to your friends and family who care deeply about this election and ask them to contribute before our deadline.

Sincerely,

Mary Beth Cahill
Campaign Manager, Kerry for President

Paradigm Shift

I have long maintained that the inept corruption, and, alternately, corrupt ineptness, of the Bush administration is changing the power balance in American society, where, for years, Republicans have been the bullies, kicking sand in the faces of the 98 pound weakling Democrats. Now, the Dems are motivated, they, hell we, are energized. We're ready to kick those MOTHERFUCKERS out on their collective asses come November! I know Republicans, and they are pretty sheepish about even talking about their President. There's nothing for them to crow about and everything to be embarrassed about. And now Mike Lux is seeing this in the red states. Read his quite heartening Reality Check here.

BTW, the Daily Reality Check at BushRecall.org is a great resource. You can get it delivered to your email in box every weekday. It's well worth reading and subscribing to.

Thursday, May 27, 2004

A Speech from MY President

From MoveOn.org:

Yesterday, MoveOn.org sponsored a powerful speech by former Vice President Al Gore on the fallout from the war in Iraq. In the speech, Mr. Gore took on the Bush administration, arguing that the "abuse of the prisoners at Abu Ghraib flowed directly from the abuse of the truth that characterized the Administration's march to war and the abuse of the trust that had been placed in President Bush by the American people in the aftermath of September 11th." To sustained applause, he then called for the architects of the Bush foreign policy – Donald Rumsfeld, Condoleezza Rice, George Tenet, Paul Wolfowitz, and others -- to resign, arguing that "the current team is making things worse with each passing day."

You can read a full transcript of the speech and watch a great five-minute video of the highlights here.

Mr. Gore began the speech by focusing on the policy of domination which pervades the Bush Administration:

"An American policy of dominance is as repugnant to the rest of the world as the ugly dominance of the helpless, naked Iraqi prisoners has been to the American people. Dominance is as dominance does."

"Dominance is not really a strategic policy or political philosophy at all. It is a seductive illusion that tempts the powerful to satiate their hunger for more power still by striking a Faustian bargain. And as always happens -- sooner or later -- to those who shake hands with the devil, they find out too late that what they have given up in the bargain is their soul."

This policy, he explained, is making us less safe as a country:

"The unpleasant truth is that President Bush's utter incompetence has made the world a far more dangerous place and dramatically increased the threat of terrorism against the United States. Just yesterday, the International Institute of Strategic Studies reported that the Iraq conflict " has arguably focused the energies and resources of Al Qaeda and its followers while diluting those of the global counterterrorism coalition." The ISS said that in the wake of the war in Iraq Al Qaeda now has more than 18,000 potential terrorists scattered around the world and the war in Iraq is swelling its ranks."
To sustained applause, he then called for the resignation of the Bush foreign policy team:

"One of the strengths of democracy is the ability of the people to regularly demand changes in leadership and to fire a failing leader and hire a new one with the promise of hopeful change. That is the real solution to America's quagmire in Iraq. But, I am keenly aware that we have seven months and twenty five days remaining in this president's current term of office and that represents a time of dangerous vulnerability for our country because of the demonstrated incompetence and recklessness of the current administration."

"It is therefore essential that even as we focus on the fateful choice, the voters must make this November that we simultaneously search for ways to sharply reduce the extraordinary danger that we face with the current leadership team in place. It is for that reason that I am calling today for Republicans as well as Democrats to join me in asking for the immediate resignations of those immediately below George Bush and Dick Cheney who are most responsible for creating the catastrophe that we are facing in Iraq."

"We desperately need a national security team with at least minimal competence because the current team is making things worse with each passing day. They are endangering the lives of our soldiers, and sharply increasing the danger faced by American citizens everywhere in the world, including here at home. They are enraging hundreds of millions of people and embittering an entire generation of anti-Americans whose rage is already near the boiling point."

"We simply cannot afford to further increase the risk to our country with more blunders by this team. Donald Rumsfeld, as the chief architect of the war plan, should resign today. His deputies Paul Wolfowitz, Douglas Feith and his intelligence chief Stephen Cambone should also resign. The nation is especially at risk every single day that Rumsfeld remains as Secretary of Defense. Condoleezza Rice, who has badly mishandled the coordination of national security policy, should also resign immediately."

And, at the end, he called for us to hold Bush accountable in November:

"I want to speak on behalf of those Americans who feel that President Bush has betrayed our nation's trust, those who are horrified at what has been done in our name, and all those who want the rest of the world to know that we Americans see the abuses that occurred in the prisons of Iraq, Afghanistan, Guantanamo and secret locations as yet undisclosed as completely out of keeping with the character and basic nature of the American people and at odds with the principles on which America stands."
"I believe we have a duty to hold President Bush accountable -- and I believe we will. As Lincoln said at our time of greatest trial, 'We -- even we here -- hold the power, and bear the responsibility.'"

To read the whole speech and watch video highlights of the best moments, go here.

Fire Rummy!

From MoveOn.org:

Americans have long believed that there should be consequences when leaders make bad decisions. Secretary Rumsfeld's decisions about the invasion and its aftermath led to the crisis that we face today.

General Anthony Zinni, former commander-in-chief of the United States Central Command and Bush administration special envoy to the Middle East said,

"I blame the civilian leadership of the Pentagon directly. Because if they were given the responsibility, and if this was their war, and by everything that I understand, they promoted it and pushed it - certain elements in there certainly - even to the point of creating their own intelligence to match their needs, then they should bear the responsibility."

"But regardless of whose responsibility I think it is, somebody has screwed up. And at this level and at this stage, it should be evident to everybody that they've screwed up. And whose heads are rolling on this? That's what bothers me most."

"Look, there is one statement that bothers me more than anything else. And that's the idea that when the troops are in combat, everybody has to shut up. Imagine if we put troops in combat with a faulty rifle, and that rifle was malfunctioning, and troops were dying as a result"

"I can't think anyone would allow that to happen, that would not speak up. Well, what's the difference between a faulty plan and strategy that's getting just as many troops killed?"[1]

President Bush didn't offer any significant new ideas in his sppech on Monday night -- in essence, he's planning to stay the course. According to General Zinni, "The course is headed over Niagara Falls... I think it's time to change course a little bit or at least hold somebody responsible for putting you on this course." [2]

President Bush showed us again that he isn't willing to own up to the mistakes of his administration and hold people accountable. If he won't, it's up to us and our elected representatives to do so.

[1] CBS News
[2] Washington Post

Homework Avoidance Post #1

T-Shirt Hell does it again! It's almost NOT pervy, cos they have been famous since they were babies. Get it?

Okay, so I used to save all my political posts for The Central Word. But no longer:

After three successive years of massive tax cuts tilted towards special interests and the extremely wealthy, the Bush's jobs promises have gone unfulfilled, and the government is lacking funds to pay for programs. The opening line of an article in today's Washington Post says it all:

"The White House put government agencies on notice this month that if President Bush is reelected, his budget for 2006 may include spending cuts for virtually all agencies in charge of domestic programs, including education, homeland security and others that the president backed in this campaign year."

Included in the proposed White House budget are cuts in a nutrition program for women, infants and children, Head Start, the Education Department, and homeownership programs - all things that Bush has trumpeted as high priorities for his administration on the campaign trail this year. As if we needed more reasons to vote this chump out of office. :)

Read more here (registration required).

Also, today, American Family Voices announced the release of a new video, "Honor Betrayed," that details the Bush administration's supreme mismanagement of our Armed Forces. Several of America's most respected military experts agreed to be interviewed for the video (available here), and their assessment of the Bush administration's conduct is knowledgeable and scathing. "I don't think [the troops] are getting the support from the administration that they deserve," said Ret. Gen. Joseph Hoar.

Spread the word.

AP

Inside Joke

I have a girlfriend. She lives in Canada, though. You wouldn't know her.

Heh. I've been accused today of, among other things, blogging solely for a certain someone. And I was thinking that since this certain someone seems to be poring over this blog daily and quite thoroughly, maybe I am. :) But I don't want the amusingly excoriating emails to escalate, so I won't say anymore past that. BTW, I could very easily post these emails too, but Allan thinks I shouldn't even be talking about this stuff in this arena. I dunno. Isn't that what it's for? Nobody reads this thing to find out what I had for breakfast (BTW, it's the same thing each and every day: shredded wheat in chocolate soy milk, sometimes with berries). They want drama, intrigue, bitch-slapping. And I've had the first two in great abundance recently. However, if I continue to fan the flames of crazy, I put myself at great risk of receiving the third.

And she just emailed me while I was writing this. It looks like maybe she's finally going to stop. So I will too. Adios, crazy. You'll be remembered. :)

And from the Rapidly Decreasing Andy Department: 192 pounds. I often see less on the scale, but that has been a pretty common reading. I am guessing that I was still gaining muscle while losing fat, but now I've gained all the muscle I'm going to gain, without picking up the weights (I really need to buy a set), so now that fat seems to be falling off at the rate of a few pounds a week. Pretty cool. I haven't taken a day off from running in nine days, but my body was telling me to take one today. Not that I did. My body was right. I turned back half way. :)

Oh, yeah, and...five more classes left!

The Rest of My Life

This song has been speaking to me and reflects my recent thoughts. The only change I would make to the lyrics is this:

One thing I know about
The rest of my life
I know that I’ll be
Living it in MICHIGAN

Of course, if Bush steals the election in November...

Wednesday, May 26, 2004

What do you mean, "smelly?"

So I put this up on ebay and it sold almost immediately. It was supposed to be a gift, so, when it sold, I decided to use the proceeds and get a gift for myself.

And then I got another.

I have really turned into a bit of a "cologniac." I'm really excited about these two new scents. I can't wait to get em. It's all kinda new to me. When things started happening with Jen, back in January, I started wearing cologne again. Allan's advice. :) I hadn't worn any at all for years. My last scents were probably Aqua di Gio by Giorgio Armani and another I cannot remember anymore (male torso-shaped bottle). So I bought nine new scents, my favorites ultimately being Crave by Calvin Klein (for daytime) and Polo Blue by Ralph Lauren(for the nighttime). But these new ones are supposed to be the best of the year.

And besides, I'm back on the market. I am already starting to find other women attractive again (where did all the lookers in my class come from?). So I figure a new chapter deserves a new scent (or two).

Smell ya later!

Humpday turns into Greatday

Wow. I don't know what happened, but today was looking pretty grim, weather-wise, up until the time that I went to class. But I get out, though, and it's 73 degrees and mostly sunny. About time!

And then this sold on ebay.

And from the Loose Ends Department, here is the best pic that I took at last Thursday's Sloan show.

Six classes left. :)

Humpday Whatnot

Okay, wow. Post-run, my weight this morning was 189.2. I haven't seen the 180s in...a while now. Of course, it WAS post-run, which means I was dehydrated. But still, wow. Maybe 185 is too easy. Maybe I should shoot for 180. Or 175. ...Oh no! I'm anorexic! how did that happen?

My friend Anne has linked to my blog on the main page to her blog, so since one good turn deserves another, I will see if I can figure out how to do the same. In the meantime, check out the Land of Anne. Anne (self-proclaimed librarian, knitter, and flirt) and I have a date to commiserate over our recent romantic disappointments while drinking tasty Coronas (with lime, of course). I am wondering if it was the Coronas or the post-Sloan glow, but I really enjoyed sucking them down (the Coronas, not Sloan) last Thursday night. Either way, I can't wait. Also, this Thursday should mark the return to the powerful Allan-Andy-Rachel triumverate, where, at Mountain Town, Rachel pours, Allan guzzles, smokes and swoons, and Andy sips on, admiring the show. I just wish they hadn't taken all my faves off the menu.

Hey, shouldn't I be doing the homework that's due in one hour?! Yes! Yes, I should! Bye!

Tuesday, May 25, 2004

Weekday Update

So this morning, at the proverbial butt-crack of dawn, I went to my pregraduation audit. Happily, everything in my transcript was positively ducky and they gave me an application for graduation, which I promptly ran over to the UC, along with the $35 fee, making it official: I will graduate this time next year. Even less than one year, in fact. :) Woo! And whatnot.

And then in my class later in the afternoon, I made the WORST inadvertent joke. A small group was preparing to talk about something Holocaust-related, but they couldn't stop giggling, so I said "Yeah, the final solution is a real gas." Gas? Initiate cringe sequence!

An update on my weight: I am currently somewhere below 194. Sometimes it's 191-ish, sometimes a bit higher. So I'll go with the higher estimate, which is still lower than my last update (195.2). I don't quite know how I'm still losing, when I've decreased my running distance, cut out the second daily runs, and have been eating some verboten foods (pizza, french fries, candy bars, beer at the Sloan show). But I guess since I'm still running seven days a week, I'm still gonna take off some weight. Cool by me.

7 class days left before Freedom Summer 2004 officially begins! Two and a half months of no work (as always), no school, and no drama. I am so excited. Or I will be if it ever stops raining.

Bad Dream

Have you ever had an encounter with someone, particularly at night, that was so weird that the next morning you felt like it was just a dream? Well, I did. Yesterday. See, I better go back to the beginning. I didn't blog about it, but I told D I couldn't see her anymore last Tuesday (May 18th). And I was doing as well as I usually do when I am trying to get her out of my mind (which is not well, BTW), when, late Saturday night (May 22nd), she called me, drunk I later find out, all upset. She told me she was homeless and living out of her car. She even told me that she slept in the Anspach parking lot that Thursday night, the night Allan and I were in GR to see Sloan. And then she told me she loved me. Wow. Needless to say, I told her, forget everything that had happened between us, that she could stay with me. So Monday (yesterday) comes around and she moves in. We don't really talk about the call. It's like the elephant in the room that no one mentions. So bedtime rolls around and I can't take it. I have to talk about it. Well, it turns out she still has a place to stay at her friend's, she just doesn't like it. It's no fun, apparently, and it's way down in Alma. And she, in fact, stayed with a friend Thursday night. She has not, it turns out, spent a single night in her car. Also, she told me that she does NOT love me, that she was drunk, and that she does not think we should try again. Well, I was astounded. Why was she here, I asked. I felt taken. She had manufactured a story, she LIED to me, she used my reliable feelings for her, despite the fact that I was trying to get over her, just so she could have a more convenient place to stay. Well, I was astounded. Absolutely amazing. And I knew that I could not have her under my roof, in my bed, and still get over her and move on. Rather, I wanted to try again. Foolishly, of course. But that's the hold she has on me. But she did not. She just wanted a place to stay, and mine is nice and well-located. So when she got fed up with talking about it, she decided to leave, right then and there, at Midnight. There were no arguments from me whatsoever. I even helped her pack. And now she's surely pissed, despite the fact that she was the one who lied to me, who came into my home (and, yeah, I suppose my heart) under false pretenses, and then who chose to leave when she didn't like facing what she had done.

It's really weird. Like I say, on this cold, tired morning, it feels like a dream, like I wonder if it really happened. I wish it hadn't. My last memory of being with her was actually kind of nice. But now I have this one. On the bright side, at least, it's gotta be the last chapter. An epilogue maybe. I told Steffel this was going to make a great short story someday. But I wonder which one of us will write it. It's probably more significant to me, but she's the real writer. Heh, maybe I should be thanking her for the source material. Or her me. :)

May your days, and nights, be relatively drama-free.

Andy

Sunday, May 23, 2004

Brilliant!

This is bloody brilliant! Thanks to Anne for the tip.

So yesterday was the most boring day on record. Nothing happening at all. I mean, the high point was watching the last few episodes of season six of Sex & the City. And, man, a lot of that shit was hitting home in the (seeming) aftermath of D. So then who should call at 10:45PM but D herself. Needless, I should think, to say, I was unable to fall asleep unti 3:00AM.

Not sure if I am going downstate to see Sloan or not. I'd LOVE to, but it all rests on Allan and whether he can resist the lure of SLOOOO-OOOOAN! The thing is, I KNOW that it will be a rocking show, because Detroit has always been good to Sloan (and vice versa). They have gotten lots of airplay on 89X for over ten years, so there will surely be a LOT of fans there to see them. The question this morning is, will we (Allan and I)? We passed on the Chicago show, and I still don't quite know why. Allan and I both have a history/relationship with that town, AND we had an empty apartment for the weekend, if we wanted it. Yet I sat home, bored, all weekend (so far), not really even doing much in the way of homework. Sigh.

Andy