I just wasn't made for these (particular) times

So I went out last night. I had an okay time, even though I was pretty down about the whole Jen epiphany. But I saw some people that I don't often see (because I never go the Bird). I also met some other neat people, including just the cutest, coolest girl, Allison, who remembered the radio show that i did for a single semester almost two years ago. I forgot to ask her exactly WHAT she liked about it, but it still amazes me that I found out, after the fact, that so many people enjoyed that show. At the time I was doing it, I felt like I was just doing it for myself, which was a major factor in the decision to stop doing it. If, at the time, I had had cute young girls coming up and talking to me simply because I did the show, well, I'd still be doing it to this day. :)

Then I ran into my friend Jason, who was up from Romeo. I tagged along with his crew on a trip to the Dinner Bell. I hadn't eaten a thing all day, other than a bowl of cereal thirteen hours earlier (and two bottles of vanilla chai tea), and I had had FOUR Bell's Winter Whites at the Bird, so I probably needed something in my stomach. I think I've lost my appetite a bit due to, you know, being bummed about Jen. But, hey, I could stand to lose at least ten pounds, so bring on the depression, man! :)

Seriously, I did wake up pretty sad this morning, and I SO remember this feeling. You wake up and you just feel like, "Why bother?" Unfortunately, I don't really have an answer to that question. It seems like lately everyone in my life is so incredibly busy, and I have nothing to do but obsess over a girl.

But on the bright side, maybe I can stop with all that. We have had many, many talks about the utter implausibility of our having a relationship, but this one felt different. I guess it was that I agreed this time, if for different reasons.

I think I'll go to Meijer. I'm out of chai tea.